"Reality" Punches.. !! :-/

I was Happy, very Happy !!
I was Smiling continuously like an Idiot,
Clueless of the reason that's making me smile,
May be because, I could hold your hands finally,
Or, I could blabber all the time about you, with you,
Or, I could take your name "n" number of times irrespective of people around me,
Or, I could wake up beside you resting my head on you,
Or, I could listen to your heart beat in the drop dead silence of the morning,
Or, I could just stare at you, while you were still sleeping and think how lucky I am, to have you in my life,
Or, I could kick start my day with a good morning Kiss from you,
Or, I could just look into those eyes and wonder what made you occupy this "special" part in my heart, head and Life,
Or, I could wait for you endlessly, brushing off all the distractions to discuss about your day,
Or, I could end our previous day arguements with a Hug, just a Hug,
Or, I could plan millions of things to make you happy,
Or, I could do any thing to be with you every second, minute, hour, day and years to come,
Or, I could.. I could.. I could..
"Get up now, it's too late" !!!
All I could hear was, my mom's voice,
It was a Dream. A Beautiful Dream. For which I could sleep Forever.
Now reality hits me hard, punches me in the gut,
I collect all my energy to get up,
To see whether you've called, messaged or mailed me,
Sigh. No! You were Busy.
"Its okay" !!!! I try to soothe myself...